wow i fucking hate hurricanes but i love um :] noo school! ... but we all have 2 evacute and shit .. plus everyone has their panties all ina fucken bunch n flippen out n shit ... its gay!! im sitting here burnen a CD and i decided i write in this while i do it so it'll waiste time. lalala ! lol

anyways ... wow i havent wrotten in this shit ina while ... idk where i left off but me n Cor broke up the DAY BEFORE OUR 1 YEAR ... :[ ... and were deff. not getten back 2gether ... its strickly a "friend" thing ... that fucken sucks ass but ima live with it. i've been doin really good about it latley ... i mean i talk 2 him still n shit n were still st28 but i wish i wasnt his friend... its like when i talk 2 him its all str8 but when we hang up ... no i love yous or anything and thats when it hits me ... i hate it but whatever ...

he has a girlfriend (wow yeahhh already) her name is Samantha and she is 16 ... she goes 2 his school and he says shes str8 ... but shes a bitch 2 me (go firgure ... i would be 2 so i cnt complain) she wanted 2 talk 2 me or whatever so the other day when i went 2 Cor's sister she called him ... n so i talekd 2 her (she is dumb b/c she dnt know i was @ his house ... ??? lol) she told me the normal stuff ... 2 stay away 4rm her man and that he dont want me calling him .. an shit like that i was laughing and i was like bitch please ... whartever ... then later that day she called Cor back (she literally called like 48390034 times a day .. wow) and told him some shit that I DIDNT SAY, and he knows that because he was RIGHT THERE (dumabss) and then said lemme see her in the streets ... HAHAHAHA I WAS CRACKING UP .. THAT SHIT STILL MAKES ME LAUGH ... i'd like 4 her 2 see my in the streeets ... wow ... that shit is funny! and i guess 1 of his homeboys seen me @ his house n she found out n was crying (bigg fucken deal) lol ... she told me she loves me (in less then a week ... whoaaa) and i guess he said it back idk ... but whatevr if he loves her he does (which i doubt b/c i know this kid better then anyoneeeee and im pretty sure he dont) im not going to sit and cry no more n shit .. fuck that ima live my life and do what i do ... things'll be differnt b/c he isnt w/ me .. and yes it does hurt veryyy much ... but i'll live (i hope) ...

i fucknig hate school man ... i have gotten into trouble already and its not even been a month ... haha ... i got suspended 4rm the bus for 3 days because my bus driver makes smart comments 2 me and expects me 2 sit there w/ my mouth shut ... fuckk that aint no bitch finna punk me down no matter what ur age is ... so i kinda cursed him out n shit (for like 5 days) then he finally got me in trouble .. so my momma had 2 drive me 2 school last week (which was better)  then i got 2 detentions ... 4 bein late 2 my 6th period bcus my teachers are fucking bitches and i swear if i see her outside of school ima shoot her in her knee cap .. (hahahaha)

the other day my rents went outta town 4 the anniversary (boy oh boy) my girl laura skipped and we stole my dads work truck (isnt the best but a car yunnno) and went n got her boyfriend .. chilled @ my place 4 awhile n then went n got tacobell ... then picked Alice up 4rm school n got James ... then went 2 Cor;s bus stop n seen him ( :[ , he wears her ring n earring ) ... n then chilled whereve ... boy my brother cam over @ like 2:30 in the morning and said he seen me n shit but he was drunk (even tho he DID see me cus i seen him ...lol) my mom didnt belive him cus she said she took the keys (not the spareee 1 hahahaha) but its str8 ..

now jeremy is back on my ass cus i told him me n cor r over .. .written me letters n shit ... but hes all sweet in a letter but a dick on the phone ... i dont get it ... but whatever ... hes stupid .. im deff. not feelen him in that way no more so he should gett over it .. haha

i been talken 2 Cor all day .. burnen CD's n shit .. and he said "i love you" but then he was like "whoaa i didnt mean 2 say that, well mayb i did .. lemme stop" my heart like sank when he said that shit ... and then he called me baby! but he didnt mean 2 do that neitehr ... hahahah! lol i was so happy (even tho he did it on accident b/c he is soo used 2 sayen it) but yeah ..